The last couple of weeks have been hard and fun and just a mixture of emotions!
I’ll be honest – I’m still having a tough time dealing with baby thoughts. Trying not to think about it and just letting things happen in their own time, but man. I just thought babies were the next step, and babies are still not coming, so I start wondering – if I’m not supposed to be a MOM right now, what the heck am I supposed to be doing?? Most of the time I do OK, some months are harder than others. This month we hit the 2-year mark for trying, and I guess we just… keep trying. There’s not much else we can do. Doctor’s say everything is normal and I’m still not sure I’m willing to spend a fortune on further testing and hormones and all that other stuff yet. I wanted it to happen as naturally as possible. Perhaps in the near future we will reevaluate. But I still just get that gut feeling…
So we wait. And try to take advantage of “Life Before Children”.
We have had some fun this month too. There have been lots of birthday celebrations, which is always good. *CAKE!* The boys from Wisconsin came for a short visit, so it was fun to see them again. And we just returned from our annual camping trip to Kern River. Minus my stupid migraine, we had a great time. Most of the group arrived Friday, but with hubby’s work schedule we didn’t get there until Saturday. Just spent the day by the river, fishing and taking pictures. We had a beautiful spot this year! Nice and shady, close to the river and the water was calm enough to swim. I loved it. The guys made some awesome food on the campfire and we had fun just hanging out and gettin’ dirty.
My summer Dave Matthews Band shows are right around the corner too, so I’m getting excited for those. I’m going to Salt Lake City (my 30th show!!!), Chula Vista and L.A. For the first time in many years, we are not going up to San Fran. I’ll miss that annual little weekend trip.
So I guess summer is winding down. It’s over as quickly as it began and in just a few month the holidays will be here. Yikes.
I know I already have one, but we’ve been trying for a 2nd for almost a year. It’s still pretty tough. I can relate.
Go with your gut feeling. I did and we were eventually blessed with Sophia. Not in the timing I would have planned, but I know I was meant to have her when I did.
Enjoy your summer concerts. Sounds way fun. Going and doing as you please is nice. That Coldplay concert was the first I’ve been to in years.
I’m trying to get in as much selfish stuff like traveling far off on my own and buying expensive camera stuff as possible before any kids can come. 🙂
Oh Jaana, you are such a positive spirit I just know that things will go your way soon. I’ll keep my fingers crossed!
I’m going to miss California road trips — I have fond memories of the Kern River and Lake Isabella.
Enjoy the rest of your summer — autumn’s beautiful light is just around the corner.
hopefully things will happen in their own way soon 🙂 – my hair dresser did say they tried reseed and got it for like 14 bucks on amazon just incase you hadn’t heard of it… anyhoo! i love and miss you and hope to see you soon!
I’m so sorry you are having a hard time… I just don’t get it. Half of my friends and family are dealing with infertility.
Anyhoo– you are coming???
I’d love to see you but understand how these kinds of trips are sometimes. Just know we live pretty close to Usana where DMB is playing.
Love you!